# Complex Alchemy ^d72a49 >[!cite|no-title] >_<center><div class="info"> [[Mei]] ✦ Entry 5 ✦ 01/03/4361</div></center>_ >**<center>[[Session 18]] - Monkeying Around</center>** >[!grid|col-3] >>[!noted|blank] > >>[!cite|no-title] >>##### [[Complex Alchemy#^89150e|Jump to Transcript ☟]] > >>[!noted|blank] --- >[!journal|mei] &nbsp; ><div class="mei"><center>Hirotashi the 1st, Moonday</center> > >Dear diary, > >I'm worried about Vindarr; I haven't seen him around much after we had returned, and he has spoken to me even less. It's only been about a day but it feels like its been an eternity since I last spoke to him. > >I don't even know if he's okay and that's the worst part. It gets to a point where praying that he's okay, where ever his mind is, begins to fall flat. It doesn't reassure me about anything. I want to see that he's fine with my own eyes, and not by some image I've painted in my head. > >It made me feel ill. I managed to catch him when he returned for the night, maybe still in a good mood from going out shooting to have agreed to go get drinks with me. I didn't know what else to do, I figured that might've been my best option to get him to agree to something, with the bonus of his habits making him a worse liar than he already is. Unfortunately, it might've worked a fair bit too well. > >Regardless, my time today wasn't completely alone. I went to see the Lolth church today. Absence came to visit! > >Soul Torpor was nice, he answered some of my questions about things. Although, he didn't have much to say about the purple moss, or anything like that. He was confused, actually, which only made me more confused, and more worried. > >I don't know what to do, and I hoped maybe the Soul could help me see through the dark, but it looks like I have to find a way for myself. > >Absence however was rather kind. I don't get many questions about my faith, and I still wonder why she didn't ask the Soul instead. She might have been a bit nervous. > >Absence seemed lost, I think. Like her questions weren't of curiosity and instead because she was looking for something - An answer, maybe? I wonder what question she is asking inside her head, the one she wants answered. I don't know how to word a question right enough to ask that. > >I also don't know how to word a lot of my questions to her right. I hope she made the right decision with Mendekua, and all. I really do. ></div> ^89150e >[!grid|col-3] >>[!noted|blank] > >>[!cite|no-title] >>##### [[Complex Alchemy#^d72a49|Back to Top ☝︎]] > >>[!noted|blank]