# Tunneling Snakes ^b52ab7 >[!cite|no-title] >_<center><div class="info"> [[Mei]] ✦ Entry 3 ✦ 45/02/4361</div></center>_ >**<center>[[Session 12]] - The Good, The Bad, and The Freezing</center>** >[!grid|col-3] >>[!noted|blank] > >>[!cite|no-title] >>##### [[Artificer's Wet Dream#^c44a30|Jump to Transcript ☟]] > >>[!noted|blank] --- >[!journal|mei] &nbsp; ><div class="mei"><center>Fatimara the 45th, Sunday</center> > >How exciting! I learnt of the most fantastic news; Izre is my brother in law! > >His eldest sister, Teneera, is married to mine! I've always wanted a brother! I already have one, but we don't talk much and he moved away when I was younger, but Izre is a lot of fun and I hope he still wants to do a travelling cart, it would be like a family business! > >Izre said he didn't want me to try and remember anything about his family, or talk about it if I did remember, which is sad. I don't know why he's so scared, his family is always so nice and I wish I had a sister like Teneera. Maybe now, if Izre would let me, I could have a second family with more brothers and sisters and things won't be as lonely. His mum is so kind also, and his dad so hard-working, and they are always with one another and working so well together. > >I wonder sometimes what my mum thinks. About dad. She doesn't speak of him much, she doesn't like wandering on what isn't, says its a waste of time. > >I wish I knew something at all, though. I know its a waste but I can't help but think maybe it would help to know a little. Even if it didn't help, I would want to know. It feels strange to miss a man I never really knew but now with Izre a part of the family (or, moreso, feels as though I am now a part of his), I can't help but be reminded of what I'm missing. > >I was sad when Izre said he wasn't going to come to my wedding; he said he might come disguised but I don't like that. I didn't tell him, I don't want him to come if he doesn't want to, but I hoped that if he was there I wouldn't be so scared to go. He said he lied to his family, that he isn't meant to be in New Dawnhold and he would be spotted, so I hope that they make amends and they become friends again, so that Izre can come. I would make him a bridesmaid! I only have my sisters as bridesmaids and I'm scared they will hide spiders in my clothes or my hair. I would like Izre there even if he just holds my hand; he is good at making me feel safe. > >I wonder who else has family they miss, I don't know a lot about the others. > >Diletta has Doctor Gryysymtsofaemorianthiel, who I'm not sure how she sees. Does she think of her as a mother? It feels weird to ask, I can tell Diletta doesn't like it when I ask questions about her and Doctor Gryysymtsofaemorianthiel, she gets this look in her eye that feels so lonely even when she doesn't tell me she dislikes it. > >Vindarr is divorced, I think. I wonder if he has any kids. I can't really say for certain, Vindarr gets very angry whenever Diletta gives her condolences for his ex-wife and sometimes children, and Vindarr insists he is neither married or has children, but then sometimes he talks to Diletta about his ex-wife. He says it when he smiles then, though, which might mean it is probably joke, but it's hard to tell because he always smiles when he talks to Diletta. > >Absence, I don't know, and I don't think the other wyrmling is of any family of hers (I hope; I wouldn't want Absence to need to fight family). She is less difficult to ask, and always so nice to talk to, she always answers my questions and never waffles on. I wish I could talk as smart as her, or as confident as her, or as strong as her. She also has a wedding ring, which I didn't notice before, but the ring is quite pretty I think; I didn't have a good look before she walked away, and she seemed rather upset after I asked and told me she didn't 'legally have to tell me' about it. > >I'm worried, as any friend would be, but I want to find out so desperately how she managed to do it; how she managed to overcome this... feeling I have in my stomach. The closer we get to New Dawnhold and for every day that passes I feel this pit in my stomach sink deeper and deeper. Absence had asked me if I was excited for my wedding, and I said that I was, but I dislike how I don't like to say it. I am excited, I'm sure, I am excited to see my family again and now even more to see Izre's family again as well. Anything else, though, makes me nervous. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, my throat feels like its swollen shut, like I can't speak and I struggle to breath, and my chest starts to ache from my ribs to my neck. I want to know if Absence felt the same, if she struggled to sleep before her wedding night, and I want to know what she did to keep herself from running away.</div> --- >[!cite|transcript]- Transcript >Fatimara the 45th, Sunday > > How exciting! I learnt of the most fantastic news; Izre is my brother in law! > > His eldest sister, Teneera, is married to mine! I've always wanted a brother! I already have one, but we don't talk much and he moved away when I was younger, but Izre is a lot of fun and I hope he still wants to do a travelling cart, it would be like a family business! > > Izre said he didn't want me to try and remember anything about his family, or talk about it if I did remember, which is sad. I don't know why he's so scared, his family is always so nice and I wish I had a sister like Teneera. Maybe now, if Izre would let me, I could have a second family with more brothers and sisters and things won't be as lonely. His mum is so kind also, and his dad so hard-working, and they are always with one another and working so well together. > > I wonder sometimes what my mum thinks. About dad. She doesn't speak of him much, she doesn't like wandering on what isn't, says its a waste of time. > > I wish I knew something at all, though. I know its a waste but I can't help but think maybe it would help to know a little. Even if it didn't help, I would want to know. It feels strange to miss a man I never really knew but now with Izre a part of the family (or, moreso, feels as though I am now a part of his), I can't help but be reminded of what I'm missing. > > I was sad when Izre said he wasn't going to come to my wedding; he said he might come disguised but I don't like that. I didn't tell him, I don't want him to come if he doesn't want to, but I hoped that if he was there I wouldn't be so scared to go. He said he lied to his family, that he isn't meant to be in New Dawnhold and he would be spotted, so I hope that they make amends and they become friends again, so that Izre can come. I would make him a bridesmaid! I only have my sisters as bridesmaids and I'm scared they will hide spiders in my clothes or my hair. I would like Izre there even if he just holds my hand; he is good at making me feel safe. > > I wonder who else has family they miss, I don't know a lot about the others. > > Diletta has Doctor Gryysymtsofaemorianthiel, who I'm not sure how she sees. Does she think of her as a mother? It feels weird to ask, I can tell Diletta doesn't like it when I ask questions about her and Doctor Gryysymtsofaemorianthiel, she gets this look in her eye that feels so lonely even when she doesn't tell me she dislikes it. > > Vindarr is divorced, I think. I wonder if he has any kids. I can't really say for certain, Vindarr gets very angry whenever Diletta gives her condolences for his ex-wife and sometimes children, and Vindarr insists he is neither married or has children, but then sometimes he talks to Diletta about his ex-wife. He says it when he smiles then, though, which might mean it is probably joke, but it's hard to tell because he always smiles when he talks to Diletta. > > Absence, I don't know, and I don't think the other wyrmling is of any family of hers (I hope; I wouldn't want Absence to need to fight family). She is less difficult to ask, and always so nice to talk to, she always answers my questions and never waffles on. I wish I could talk as smart as her, or as confident as her, or as strong as her. She also has a wedding ring, which I didn't notice before, but the ring is quite pretty I think; I didn't have a good look before she walked away, and she seemed rather upset after I asked and told me she didn't 'legally have to tell me' about it. > > I'm worried, as any friend would be, but I want to find out so desperately how she managed to do it; how she managed to overcome this... feeling I have in my stomach. The closer we get to New Dawnhold and for every day that passes I feel this pit in my stomach sink deeper and deeper. Absence had asked me if I was excited for my wedding, and I said that I was, but I dislike how I don't like to say it. I am excited, I'm sure, I am excited to see my family again and now even more to see Izre's family again as well. Anything else, though, makes me nervous. Sometimes, when I go to sleep, my throat feels like its swollen shut, like I can't speak and I struggle to breath, and my chest starts to ache from my ribs to my neck. I want to know if Absence felt the same, if she struggled to sleep before her wedding night, and I want to know what she did to keep herself from running away. >[!grid|col-3] >>[!noted|blank] > >>[!cite|no-title] >>##### [[Tunnelling Snakes#^b52ab7|Back to Top ☝︎]] > >>[!noted|blank]