# SUNRISE, PARABELLUM
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>_<center><div class="info"> [[Vindarr]] ✦ Entry 7 ✦ 12/03/4361</div></center>_
>**<center>[[Session 28]] - The Last Drop</center>**
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>><div class="typewriter2">"The heart of man plans his way, but the Maker establishes his steps." Prv 16:9</div>
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>Forgive me, Lord. I am afraid.
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>I do not remember exactly my last confession; But I know it was with Mathéo. I remember then the sins I laid bare; despair, disobedience, defiling my body and—I do not think we decided the sin, now that I think back. And, in all honestly, I still am unable to tell if my transgression was of inordinate affection, or of pride.
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> Unfortunately, I can't ask Mathéo again what he thinks of my sins, but I could hazard a guess. He'd be upset (although not surprised) to hear my need to confess to, again, despair and disobedience, and a whole lot more.
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>He would understand, though, my drunkenness, malice, evil thoughts, the continued defilement of my body, blasphemy, timidity, etc. In fact, Mathéo, I feel as though I understand you now, more than ever.
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>I solemnly swear, to you Mathéo—to you, mon coeur—and to Étoile; "abhor what is evil, cling to what is good", Just as you have asked of me.
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>Would it be too uncouth of me to confess this? To protest against my self-inflicted penance? Lord, I beg—If my tongue must call for your command again, in this lifetime and beyond, to abhor and banish those evil and wicked—it will be <u>far</u> too soon. </div>
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"The heart of man plans his way, but the Maker establishes his steps." Prv 16:9
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>10/03/4361
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>Forgive me, Lord. I am afraid.
>
>I do not remember exactly my last confession; But I know it was with Mathéo. I remember then the sins I laid bare; despair, disobedience, defiling my body and—I do not think we decided the sin, now that I think back. And, in all honestly, I still am unable to tell if my transgression was of inordinate affection, or of pride.
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> Unfortunately, I can't ask Mathéo again what he thinks of my sins, but I could hazard a guess. He'd be upset (although not surprised) to hear my need to confess to, again, despair and disobedience, and a whole lot more.
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>He would understand, though, my drunkenness, malice, evil thoughts, the continued defilement of my body, blasphemy, timidity, etc. In fact, Mathéo, I feel as though I understand you now, more than ever.
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>I solemnly swear, to you Mathéo—to you, mon coeur—and to Étoile; "abhor what is evil, cling to what is good", Just as you have asked of me.
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>Would it be too uncouth of me to confess this? To protest against my self-inflicted penance? Lord, I beg—If my tongue must call for your command again, in this lifetime and beyond, to abhor and banish those evil and wicked—it will be <u>far</u> too soon. </div>
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